Crappy Day

Today wasn't all that great I woke up around 4:30 to study for a test =( Didn't really sleep all that much the night before, HAD an extremely looong day at school....I mean every class extended for forever. I finally got done at 4:30 and ....................

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I found a slip from FED-EX saying my package had arrived, now I was expecting some packages that I had ordered online but I didn't pay for overnight shipping so I was wondering what exactly this was. I get to the OFFICE to PICK it up and this is what I FIND

Me and My room-mate were sooo Excited we were jumping for joy. TODAY is one of the best days ever. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I LOOOOOVE THEM!!! YOU SURPRISED ME!

If the SHOE fits- BUY one in EVERY color

I used to be an extreme tomboy, don’t get me wrong I loved pink and dresses and all that. But I never truly understood the concept of loving shoes, or why girls needed soooo many. It seems to be a common cliché that women have a love of shoes and have several pairs.

Growing I had one pair of dress shoes and one pair of school shoes. Today if you look in my shoe closet there is probably one of each color. The point is I found a pair of shoes that I must have, my heart is DEF. saying yes, but my mind is clearly saying “LOOK AT THE PRICE” . I could probably feed a tiny nation with the price of these shoes, but look how perfect they are and consider how much more perfect they would be on my feet. 

So I have made a deal with myself. If I do well (well=making a hundred) on the next three test I will go out and celebrate by purchasing these shoes. Some GET wasted, SOME party like no tomorrow I shall choose to splurge on a definite non-essential. It will be a small (okay maybe a big) treat. Now I would like to add this small qualifier: making hundred is near impossible =). SO the likelihood of me getting the shoes is very slim, but there is still room to hope. The shoe was displayed on SEX and THE CITY it was actually made for the movie!

PRICE:250$  http://www.thedesignerdiscount.com/Manolo-Blahnik-_p_265-4590.html

Here is an article if you are interested:

  http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/2008/05/29/2008-05-29_a_blue_pair_of_manolo_blahniks_have_towe.html

Religiosity: Christianity vs. Hedonism

Today I read this article in the New York Times. After reading I was completely unsure of what to think. I consider myself a pretty devout christian. The kind that reads her bible, goes to church, listens to God, you know the drill. Now after reading this article I thought back to the times when I gave up some seemingly more pleasurable alternative in order to maintain my beliefs. WHY? What was the motivating factor behind my doing this? I wish I could say it was because I knew that it wouldn't please God and I didn't want to mess up my relationship with him, or maybe even go as far as to say that disappointing God would hurt me more then the momentary gratification that was being offered. BUT if I am being honest, I would say it was out fear; fear of going to HELL or getting caught.

In today's christian community the motivation for staying away from the sin that so easily ensnares has simply become FEAR. If you went your entire life without following the worldly pleasures out of fear that you were going to get caught or go to hell, I am sorry to tell you that you missed the bigger picture.

I find many people today more focused on staying away from sins in fear of being ostracized from their local church community. Growing up in the Malayalee, Penticostal community this IS a clear motivating factor. Parents encourage their kids to stay away from sin in fear of what the community would think. NEVER MIND the fact that sin OSTRACIZES your from your heavenly father. Churches actively preach fire and brimstone in regards to sin to scare their congregation, but the bigger picture of drawing close to GOD, and developing a relationship with him is lost.

The truth is while these "tactics" may have once worked, they are really not a lasting resolution to stay sin free. Which child stays away from trouble more: the one that has a fear of a beating or the one worried he/she will disappoint their parents? HINT: Fear is not really a MOTIVATING factor.

SO what should be the true motivating factor for trying to live a sin free life?

1. Sin is a distraction that takes us our eyes of the goal. (Hebrews 12:1-2)

2. Sin prevents us from growing closer to GOD and learning his will in our lives, we must be transformed in order to do so. (Romans 12:1,2)

3. Sin affects our relationship with GOD.

Although the above mentioned article makes you really think twice about following all of your hearts inner desires, it forgets to shine light on the fact that most people who avoid these momentary hedonistic ideals look for a longer lasting pleasure which comes from a more ligit source. IF you truly have the right motivation for abstaining from sin, you will find a greater pleasure in what you are doing. Lets be honest the fear of going to hell or the fear of being ostracized really isn't a pleasurable alternative but your relationship with GOD is.

Dear Fellow believer:

God has not called you to become a christian simply to follow a set of rules. Your seemingly sin free life is worth nothing if you do not truly know the one that saved you. Make him more then just your savior, and let that be the motivation to live a sin free life.

Thanks

Thank YOU

"Your GRACE has found me just as i am, EMPTY handed but ALIVE in your hands."

Let Go

Okay so sometime back when I started this blog I discussed not knowing how to let go. So I found this online, and thought maybe somebody somewhere could use it

Six Steps to Letting Go of Your Past:

1. Write, talk, draw, paint, or otherwise tap into your thoughts and memories. Letting go of your past means honoring your memories.
2. Let go of the emotions and feelings of painful memories by letting them wash over you – you'll feel horrible during, but relieved and peaceful afterwards. Let go of your past by reliving it.
3. Go back and talk to the people involved, if possible. Letting go of your past can mean going back.
4. Share your real feelings; confess if it's appropriate. Letting go of your past means expressing your emotions. If you have to deal with your mistakes, then own up to your shame or guilt.
5. Apologize and ask forgiveness if you need to. Letting go of your past means being vulnerable.
6. Get help with uncontrollable urges to overeat, get stoned or drunk, or otherwise hurt yourself. Letting go of your past means burying your pride.

Read more: http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/letting_go#ixzz0R5mCQoNl

Note: I am pretty sure that this might not work for everyone. I can honestly say that I have been through most of these steps. I can say that it has made me better and stronger. Its a start, moving you on the right track, the rest is up to you =) Always be willing to grow. Enjoy your journey.

Self-Evaluation

I have realized that I am an OXY-MORON:

-I love black white and beige-I also Love bold colors (ie 120 count crayola crayons)

-I love medicine and endocrinology, and immunology, I equally love Law and Journalism

-I love Lady Like manners and etiquette- I also believe that well-behaved women rarely make history (i want to make history)

-I love simple but understand complex

-I love problem solving-apparantly i like to make problems as well

-I am Independent to some and completely dependent to others

-I think women are capable of doing anything men can do, but i am not a feminist

-I think on a personality test I use both my right and left brain equally

that is all

AHh...the simple things

Like eating ICE CREAM out of the CARTON (this is not something I normally do...) - Is it bad that I try to pick out the chocolate covered almonds??

Its Snowing LEOPARDS=)

The Mable Project: Initiation- So I got my equipment. I will be fully installing snow leopard into my laptop and learning how to work i-tunes and use my mac to its fullest capability. I was like a little child opening up a brand new present on Christmas!

Dear Snow White (My macbook),

I still love you, even though you have a crack and I plan to do exceedingly great things with you yet. Don't feel unnoticed = )

Love,
Blank

Life Lesson 115

"EAT LIKE BIRDS, POOP LIKE ELEPHANTS"

-What I learned in my Power Point Design Lesson. Courtesy of Garr Reynolds .

Letter to Steve Jobs, CEO of apple

To whom it may concern:

I bought a 13 inch macbook in 2007 and noticed a year later that there were hairline cracks along the palmrest. I did some research and found that many others had experienced the same problem. I took it in to the local apple store and had a mac genius replace the cover. Within months the cracks were back again, this time along the top. Recently, cracks have again started appearing in bottom left palmrest area.

I have not dropped, abused, or damaged my computer in any way. In fact I specifically took extra care to close the laptop as gently as I was shown at the store. I want to know what the best method is to fix this new hairline crack. I have moved to ____, _____ to complete pharmacy school and I am not near an Apple store.

I am very disappointed that this is a recurring problem, not just for me but for many others as well, and that no proper long-term solution has been provided for it. It is disheartening to spend a thousand or more dollars on something you are led to believe is sturdy, but find it to be so fragile. Please let me know what you can do to take care of this problem. I have already spent a lot of time, effort, and money trying to fix this and am not will spend any more. Since this is a recurring problem, I would like for Apple to resolve this issue free of charge.

I have just ordered a mac book pro, and have spent quite a bit of money on it. I sincerely hope the mac book pro will not give me such trouble.

Thanks
___ ______

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