Wednesday, July 8, 2009

The newspaper has many uses: including but not limited to making airplanes for your nephews =)

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Apparently print journalism is dying, evidence of this can be found at Barnes and Noble where they make you purchase your copy rather then browsing. The following is a copy of todays front cover. I purchased one in support of all the journalists who already have a tough time making a break, so rather then get your news for free on their website, you should go out and buy a copy. There really is nothing like the smell of a freshly printed newspaper.

d when you completely bored and want to waste money, and feel self important you can stop buy your local book store (which by the way are always romantic in my opinion) and buy expensive coffee cause they brew the expensive stuff and put it in smaller cups just in case you don't already feel like a jerk.
And finally to top any good day off, you have to go to yet another commercialized bookstore (because these are your favorite hangouts) and purchase at least 30$ worth of books. I must say that purchasing books has a completely different feel then buying them. I don't know why but I always prefer to buy the books, something about the way it feels. (This could be why I am called the "moneywaster") I did pick up a few books which I plan on on reading.

God, I don’t love you. I don’t even want to love you. But, I want to want to love you
- Theresa of Avila (via:

True this statement. I can honestly say that my prayer has been this very quote several times, although re-worded. I pray to God to teach me to want him, or to need him. There is a major difference between want and need. Wants you can live without, needs you cant. The truth is I am a person of instant gratification, when I see something I want it. I wish sometimes that I had as much interest or love towards God or his word as I do for a a new skirt, or shopping, or eating (yes the inner fatty grumbles). How can we develop that? How can we develop John Piper's "Christian Hedonism?"  To my fellow blogger, I feel you. I pray that God would help us to see him in a different light or to seek him or to want to seek him. I think that this is the first step. I want to one day be able to let everything else go and truly be able to say I love God more then some of the other things in my life.

Monday, July 6, 2009

I love this movie ! Its one of the best romantic comedies of all time 
Ever been given a task that you absolutely love, but it just overwhelms you and almost makes you think "is this really the task that I was meant to do?" I have been thinking over this for a while. Each one of us has our own talents and personalities, and although we would like to think so, we are not qualified for every job out there. We are "uniquely qualified" for specific tasks. I really love what I do, but despite that sometimes I feel or wonder whether I am the person for the job or did I take it on because I loved it? Isn't funny how you can have a completely awful time with a task or a situation but there are heartwarming moments that make you cling to hope and give you the strength to carry on the through the next batch of awful days. I absolutely despise the office but a particular episode comes to mind: Jim is having an awful day, things are simply chaotic, nothing is going his way, and he keeps the audience updated on the awfulness of his day, he attends an awful group meeting in which pam falls asleep on his shoulder. He smiles and relents that it hasnt been a bad day after all in fact its been a great day. Sometimes thats how I feel. I feel like we are going through the bad days and hating what we once loved or thought we were qualified to do and rethink if its really what we are meant to do. I realized that every job has its ups and downs, there is no such thing as a perfect job that you absolutely love every minute of. If people tell you that there is one, they are lying. I imagine this is what parenting will be like. There will be days when you wonder why? But then they are also days that help you answer that question over and over again. I hope that life is filled with more answers then questions.

Yeah so I tried to look for a picture from the office to help explain my sentiments, couldn't find it. And just because I used an example from it doesnt make it ligit.

Friday, July 3, 2009

So I was not allowed to go to my high school prom because my Dad didnt like the notion behind prom. I was, at the time, senior class vice president, and spent quite a bit of time picking out the details for a prom that I did not get to enjoy =(  Okay so I am not sure If I ever really got over that (but I totally milked it for the next two years....ala the MAC I am using)

There are many other malayalee Pentecostal kids out there that were denied this vital opportunity in their lives. Fortunately for them there is the all encompassing PCNAK. When I was younger I used to envy the kids that got to travel every year to a different state for the nationally known conference, and hang out and be groupies. They got to wear their best outfits to outdo each other and skip meetings to hang out in the lobby, and make friends who they could IM later. I wanted to be apart of that ever growing crowd.

As I got older, I began to see PCNAK in a different light.  It was the prom that many young penti's such as myself never got attend. Except this was a four day prom, each day increasing in dress and elegancy in code of conduct. It had everything you could wish for, the only thing missing was the spiritual aspect. Now don't get me wrong I am not bashing conferences or PCNAK or secretly wanting to hold a poster that reads "DOWN WITH PCNAK!" Its just 
...I have kinda started to see beyond the glitz and glamour and started to look deep down. Where is the substance? People take out a double mortgage on their house to pay of the debt they helped rack in order to outbeat the last guy. Even more sad is that they spend 100's of thousands of dollars on getting speakers and performers who many people dont attend. While they are doing this for the "glory of God" I picture the lone servant of God riding his bicycle somewhere in India preaching the gospel, secretly worrying what his family's meal will be? Does anyone get saved at PCNAK? 

Its not that PCNAK should be shutdown (like the playboy mansion...which is another blog entry waiting to happen) its that it needs to be refocused. Why not call it like it is. A social gathering. I would be more inclined to go if that was the forefront of the conference. Rather then trying to please both GOd and man, where no one really wins. If the money spent for this prom was actually put to better use, I feel we could accomplish our goal as christians. I mean if its a social gathering you don"t have to waste money on world renowned speakers, In fact about save that money and help that poor pastor, feed his family. That way you can at least rest assured that someone somewhere is getting the desperately needed gospel and YOU HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT>

On a side note: Governor Sarah Palin is resigning. I wonder what this means for the future of Alaska. In all honesty I like her honesty. She seems like a very wholesome person who maybe deep down aside from the ignorance has her heart in the right place and has the best intentions.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009


Anger is one of the strongest emotions. I am not entirely sure what to do when am angry, but I am sure that by the end of my angry spout. I am thoroughly exhausted. Today I am angry because I am just sick of it, I am sick of doing the work and caring, 
when there is simply no respect! I know, I know the mature thing to do is to realize that I am the adult and that in the end I want what's best. Were you aware that anger is a sin?
Galations 5:19 onwards (via the NCV version)

 19 The wrong things the sinful self does are clear: being sexually unfaithful, not being pure, taking part in sexual sins,20 worshiping gods, doing witchcraft, hating, making
 trouble, being jealous, being angry, being selfish, making people angry with each other, causing divisions among people,21 feeling envy, being drunk, having wild and wasteful partie
s, and doing other things like these. I warn you now as I warned you before: Those who do these things will not inherit God's kingdom.22 But the Spirit produces the fruit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness, self-control. There is no law that says these things are wrong.24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified their own sinful selves. They have given up their old selfish feelings and the evil things they wanted to do.25 We get our new life from the Spirit, so we should follow the Spirit.26 We must not be proud or make trouble with each other or be jealous of each other.

Its funny I spend my saturdays teaching kids about the fruit of the spirit which is verse 22 onwards, but skip over 19. What if God was like me, in a moment of anger he would cast my soul to hell. I think of that short sermon I read in high school "sinners in the hand of an angry God". I was so upset when I read it, that I felt the need to raise my hand and correct the class. I wanted to explain to
 them that God was compassionate and patient, he would never accidently let a few people fall into the pits of hell simple because his arms were tired. The more I think about it the more I am glad that God has none of man's nature. I am glad that he has conquered all of these and became the very essence of the fruit of the spirit. I am sorry God, forgive me for bout of anger, and please do not take the words that I spoke seriously, you know my heart and my true desires. -Amen

On a complete 360 side note: Things that Calm me down!
1. venting (haha)
2.writing extremely long blog post
3.Watching Jane Austin books as films (ie sense and sensibility...secret longing for a colonol Brandon ;) )-Actually I have an affinity to all things british..has anyone noticed how their meals look so great...okay SO I am undercover fatty...I love watching people eat, like on TV but in specific ALL the british people with their teas and crumpet..and brunch and stuff...haha I was I was there!

I love how when I listen to song, I always think about the time when I first heard the song. For example when I hear this song, I think of spring of sophmore year, genetics and all the fun stuff that went with it. Every song has a story. So the next time you listen to one, think back to where you were when you first heard it and what was going during that time of your life.

Side NOTE: YEAH I FIGURED OUT HOW TO POST YOUTUBE VIDEOS =) small victory for the unnamed blogger, one huge step for those who are computer illiterate